Holiday Park at West Point COE

Lagrange, GA

I took these pictures Saturday and started this blog post then.  I decided to finish it and post it for today.  Today was sunny with temps in the 80’s. 

All during the night the sound of rain hitting the roof.  I love to sleep to the sound of rain hitting the roof, my back just doesn’t like the moister.  At times the rain was heavy but no severe storms. 

 

Around 9.30 AM the rain cleared off and so a walk about was calling me.  The dogwoods have been in bloom but the rain seems to have knocked the petals off the trees.

 

this road heading over to the next campsites

 

you can still the puddles the rain left behind.  The news said we had 2” of rain.

 

lots of campers here enjoying camping

This lake is huge and we had to get into the truck to see lots of it as it was too far for me to walk

 

This guy/gal was enjoying the clearing of morning

 

We got neighbors yesterday afternoon, they are across the street from us on the same side.  Across the street the other direction is a restroom nested in the trees.  We do not have any close neighbors were so secluded, just the way we like it.

 

this is the road going around our loop

 

after lunch we drove over to some other camp sites and boat docks .. there are lots of fingers on this lake

 

these campsites are not the best, they are close together .. not to our liking.  We are not on the water but in our opinion we have the best spot.

I have a happy hubby, later in the afternoon he worked on his satellite and he finally got it going.  Lots of persistence on his part and lots of moving the dish around and finally he said did you do the check switch test .. Ummmm .. NO .. we did that and behold it worked .. ooops

 

here is the entrance station when your leaving the park

We are parked on site #21

 

Our home waiting patiently for us to return .. doesn’t it look all nestled in? 

Today was spent enjoying the outdoors and watching the kids play, swim and ride bikes.  It appears several grandparents are here with their grands enjoying spring break.

Dinner tonight was stir fry cooked out on the grill with grilled chicken, shrimp and rice cooked inside .. it was yummy and what i love about cooking outside is not very many dishes :) 

I have good news to report my dad is doing much better.  They removed tubes and IV’s and once he has a bm he will be released to go home.  Thanks to all who have been praying and thank you Jesus for putting your healing head upon my dad.  I plan to get a good night sleep tonight.

am i selfish?

West Point Holiday Campground, Lagrange, GA

We woke to a beautiful day, although my mood wasn’t the best.  I moped around this morning thinking about all that my family is enduring.  How hectic their lives are now.  On Saturday my family was split, my sisters Charlotte and Debbie were with my sister Rosemary and her family at one hospital while my other sisters Rosie, Patty and brothers Ronnie, Larry and Jimmy were with my dad at another hospital.  What a horrible time it had to been for them.  Keeping in touch by phone how each other was doing. 

I have some guilt going on inside of me as i wasn’t there for either one and was kept informed by phone what was happening.  Before my full time life i would of been there for my family.  But as i have been thinking about, what more could i have done then what i did here in GA.  I prayed for God’s will to be done.  I couldn’t have done anymore if i had been at the hospital.

I’ve spent a lot of time sitting outside today praying and thinking about what is going on in my family right now.  My sister Rosemary turned 58 on Friday March 30,  Rosemary had throat cancer over 10 years ago and she gave a long hard battle to beat the cancer.  Yet, due to all the Chemo and Radiation she struggled with the scar tissue it left behind.  Rosemary had horrible issues with regurgitation which then caused her to get pneumonia.  Recently she was hospitalized again for pneumonia and bowel obstruction.  She was able to have surgery for the bowel obstruction.  This time around the double pneumonia was more then she could fight.  Her kidneys shut down and she had to be put onto life support for her breathing.  On Saturday March 31, Rosemary left this earth. I pray she knew Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior and that as i write this she is embracing her son Billy who was very sick all his life.  Billy fought a long hard battle but died at a young age.  I am thankful that i did not have see my sister Rosemary suffer in her last days.  I do not have those memories of her.  Instead I have good memories of her.

My dad is is still in the hospital.  Dad was operated on for the 2nd time in December for bladder cancer.  A year ago December his first operation he was given the green light all the caner was gone.  This past December he had surgery again for bladder cancer.  This time the cancer was a different cancer and the aggressive kind and even though he had surgery the cancer is still there.  The cancer has moved into his lymph notes and due to a bad and very week heart, Radiation and Chemo are not an option for him.  My dad decided he didn’t want to know how bad the cancer was and so no more test will be run.  My dad is ready to pass from this earth to heaven to see his baby boy he only got to have for a month, be with his daughter Bobby Jo and both the women he loved the most and many others that he loved and lost in his lifetime.

I worked with hospice before retiring so I was use to death. I knew that if my patients were born again Christians they were rejoicing as they joined Jesus Christ in heaven which is a glorious place.  Their suffering was over.  I prayed for those whom never proclaimed Christ.  Those patients death did bother me, but Jesus gave me peace that i did all that i could to make the end of their lives as peaceable as i could. 

Our family has suffered many deaths through the years but the death of my sister Bobby Jo was traumatic for me.  Bobby Jo died a few days before her 37 birthday.  We buried her the day before her Birthday.  It changed things in me.  I watched my sister suffer with a horrible disease.  She had cirrhosis of the liver.  I watched her suffer day after day, I watcher her lay in a hospital bed hooked up to machines that were keeping her alive.  I watched her mom struggle to make the decision to let her go.  I watched my dad grieve for his daughter.  I watched as my dad struggled through bury another child.  I was able to hold it together but after the funeral and i had time by myself, it ate on me at what i endured.  I have good memories of my sister Bobby Jo but sadly the memory that haunts me the most is watching my sister lay in that bed alive only by a machine. 

I also have another memory that haunts me and that is my uncle Dean who was my daddy my first 6 yrs of life.  Even though i found out that Dean really wasn’t my dad in my heart he was and always will be a daddy to me.  When he died i went to his funeral and that day is a memory i wish i never had.  If i could go back and change things i wouldn’t of went.  Because the memories i have when i was a girl and even after i found out he wasn’t my real daddy are wonderful memories.  I was always his little girl. 

My step mom .. Momma Viv passed away unexpectedly of a massive heart attack.  My mom suffered many years with health issues and many times the family was called in, mom would pull through.  I wasn’t there the last year my mom was sick. I talked to my mom on the phone and we had already said our good byes before she left this earth.  In fact i spoke with Momma Viv just days before she passed away.  She knew i loved her.  When my mom and momma Viv both died i was thousands of miles away and couldn’t get back home.    I felt guilty about it in the beginning but then God gave me comfort and I believe that God created the circumstances that prevented me from attending both of those services.  I do not have the memories that my family does of how sick my mom was.  I do not have the memories of seeing either mom or momma Viv laying in their caskets. 

I have been to both graves several times.   When i go visit their graves i do not have those horrible memories and this may be selfish but  I am so thankful that i do not have those memories to haunt me.  I have wonderful memories of both and for me it has been easier in their passing.   I have also been to Bobby Jo and Dean’s graves and every time i go the memory that comes to me for Bobby is seeing her laying in that bed, suffering from a horrible disease.  Uncle Dean is laying in that casket, i can still feel how cold his body was when i bent over and kissed him goodbye.  I don’t have those memories with mom and momma viv.  I do not want those memories from my sister Rosemary or my dad. 

Due to uncontrollable circumstances I will not be arriving home in time to attend my sister’s services on Tuesday and Wednesday.  I will be praying for my family and i ask you to do the same.  My dad issues do not appear to be a life or death situation right now.  Just lots of pain.  They believe he has a bowel blockage and the last update i had was that his bowels were coming out in his bladder bag which they shouldn’t be doing.

Some people need a funeral and they need to see the body of their loved ones in order to let them go.  I have found that for me that is no longer the case.  I have requested when i die that i be cremated and i want no services.  My immediate family will be allowed to view my body if they wish to do so before i am cremated.  I do not want my families last memories of me seeing me dead.  I want to be remember for my love to laugh.  I want to them to rejoice that i am no longer on earth but in heaven with my heavenly father rejoicing. 

I am having conflicting feeling and thoughts.  When we started our journey back to the North i was excited about seeing family and friends.  Now i have these dreading emotions inside of me.  My mind says i need to return home but my heart is saying .. Do i really want to return home to see my dad sick and suffering.  Or do i want to stay away and remember his better days?  Is it fair to my family that i stay away and chose not see my dad and help  with the responsibility of taking care of him?  Although with my own disability there isn’t much i can do other then go see him at the hospital or at home.  Am i being selfish and thinking only of myself? 

Dinner tonight was another great grilled meal.  BBQ pork steaks and grilled tators. 

 

We had some left over wood and so we decided it was a good night for a fire.  Hubby knew i needed something to cheer me up and he got the fire going, dug out the roasting stick and we had roasted marshmallows and they were yummy.  Yes bad for the diet but very yummy and just what i needed.  We sat around the fire and talked. I have a wonderful husband who supports me and is always there when i need him the most.  Thanks honey I Love YOU!   It was a good ending to a somber day. 

Passing of a sister

Today is the last of March.  March has been a ruff month for us .. we lost our beloved LuLu, a cousin passed away a little over a week ago, today my oldest sister passed away.  Rosemary has fought a long hard battle with cancer and today she went home to be with the Lord.  May you rest in Peace Rosemary.

I found out about my sister and about half an hour later i found out that my dad had been rushed to the hospital and is waiting for transfer to a bigger hospital.  My family is in need of prayer and I’m stuck thousand miles away.  

For dinner tonight we started the grill, grilled hamburgers and polish sausage with some mac and cheese. 

Not really in the blogging mood, to much on my mind with all that is going on with my family.  I sure will be glad to see March gone!  Please remember my family in your prayers.  We need our Lord and Savior to get us through these ruff times.  I’m praying my dad hangs on until i can get home to say good bye.  I wasn’t able to be there when my mom passed away.  That is one of the down sides of this lifestyle is you can be so far away when things like this happen.

A Day of Belaxing

Lagrange, GA

I think the busy week we had visiting with friends and the long drive yesterday has gotten the best of me.  I’m exhausted and need a few days  to just belax and recoup.    It was a cloudy morning and no sunshine today.  In fact it’s been a bit on the chilly side for me.  We did take a couple small walks about the campground.  They say they are sold out of RV spots we haven’t seen all the spots that have a reserved sign on them being used.  Not sure if they were reserved and the campers were not able to get here or if they are reserved so that they can be used for the weekend. 

We have seen license plates from Tenn, AL, GA and TX.  There seems to be several families here camping.  I’m assuming due to spring break.  We walked down by the lake it’s huge but i didn’t take my camera as i was worried it would rain on us before we returned. 

Temps only reached low 70’s.  Early afternoon the rain arrived and we heard a bit of thunder, but it’s just been a nice drizzling rain.  The rain has continued into the evening.  I actually love listening to a nice soft rain hitting the roof of my home.  It makes me relax, but my back does not like it and i am beginning to feel the effects of the rain.  So for me there are pros and cons to the rain. 

This is a beautiful park and it’s very peaceful and a great place to just belax.  Hubby couldn’t get his satellite to work here but the internet works :)  Cell phone service is spotty but works much better then the last place we were.  For me this is a it spot.  Were secluded by the trees with no campers right next to us.  On the back side of us is the woods and i love having my window open enjoying the view.  Hubby would be happier if he could get his satellite to work but on the plus side we have 20 channels here and so we have a good selection of TV to watch. 

Dinner tonight was a joint effort .. hubby peeled and fried the potatoes and I cooked the sausage and made the gravy.  It hit the spot and after dinner in between the rain showers we took another small walk about.  The rain started just as we got back home.  That was close.  I came home and put on my jammies and curled up in my recliner. 

On the road heading to Georgia

We were up and on the road at 8 AM  .. we stopped shortly at Pilot’s to fuel up .. Ouch with our 3 cents cash discount and our Pilots card diesel was $3.21 a gallon!  We may need a loan to get home at these prices.

 

the dogs all chilling out going down the road

   

lots of traffic on the North bound .. several RV’s on the road .. i think the snow birds are all moving North

     

We have arrived in Georgia!  This is the first time i have been in Georgia .. Yeppie i get to add another state to my list finally ..it’s been too long since I've been to a new state!!

 

very nice welcome center and the dogs were happy to get a potty break and stretch their legs .. so was i :))

     

Oh my the rolling hills .. am i in Arkansas?

beautiful area and we are making really good time .. don’t think we will be staying in a truck stop or at Wal-mart after all

getting closer were on I-185

   

We arrived at West Point, Ga around 4.30 PM and i called ahead to see if they had an opening in the park we have reservations at tomorrow and they did

we got checked in and got lucky our site is open so we won’t have to move tomorrow after all .. Yeppie .. we had to dump the tanks from our last stop (no sewer there) and we saw these turkeys one was a gobbler and he was strutting his stuff.

We got nestled in and did the basic setup for tonight and we were starving so i got dinner on the grill. 

grilled Pork Steaks and baked tators .. yummy .. we still had some day light left so we took a small walk after dinner

 

the dog woods are in bloom .. i just love em

 

We walked down to the lake .. we are not right on the lake but around the corner from it

 

the lake looks a bit on the dry side as the lakes were in Florida

   

We came home and called it a night .. were both exhausted from a long day of travel.  Were glad we bit the bullet and drove the extra to get here as we can now chill out and just relax for the next 6 days!