I woke up at 4.30 AM coughing my head off with this crud. It’s draining into my stomach and making me sick .. I got up and went back to bed a little after 7 AM and didn’t get up until after 9 AM. I took some medication and spent the morning being sick and feeling bad. When I’m sick my babies would always comfort me ….
It’s been 8 months since Lucy passed away and Friday it will be 3 months ago for Duke & Dixie .. my heart still breaks and i still have days that i sit and cry and look at their pictures. I still have them on my desktop and my digital photo frame displays their pictures everyday. I’m sure in time it will get easier but i still have huge void in my heart.
I thought of you today, but that is nothing new, I think of you everyday, I think of you in my mind and I often speak your names in my heart. There are days that bother more then others, esp on those days i forget you are no longer with me on this earth. I go to touch you, kiss you, or just cuddle with you and you are not there. My heart still has a hurting place that can never be replaced. There are days tears still stream down my face at the hurt of losing you. 
You are deeply loved and are sadly missed. This will be our first Christmas apart. You will not be here to lick my plate, you will not be here waiting for you Christmas treat. Even though you will not be here on earth with me, know that you will be here in my thoughts and heart. My heart breaks so knowing that i will never see your sweet faces again. I love you Duke, Lucy and Dixie.
