Today is 2 weeks ago I got the devastating news my Mommy had passed over to heaven. I know I should be happy that she is no longer struggling to breath or in pain but I’m being selfish and my heart is still breaking. I have moments I smile and then other moments I cry. I can hear her sweet voice saying “Pennie Lynnette, you stop that and be mommy’s big girl” I read my b’day card that she gave me the last time I saw her alive. She had ordered me a special b’day gift and took time all the while she wasn’t feeling good to make me a photo wheel so I would always have precious memories of her. Plus she made me a home made card just for me. I have the letter she left me, telling me in her own words how much I meant to her and how proud she was of me. My Mommy was an amazing woman and If I ever live up to be half the woman she was, I will be truly blessed.
This past week I made a small memorial in the Home on Wheels for Momma Rosie. In honor of her memory. I hung up the last card she gave and made just for me, along with the letter she wrote me ( I have since put the letter in the envelope and hung it up as it is a private letter I’m not ready to share with anyone other than the DH right now. I added some solar lights for night time and the picture doesn’t do it justice. I can get up in the middle of the night and still see it and I don’t have to turn on any other lights.
I wanted to share the beginning of the letter Mommy left me. How can a daughter feel more loved than to know her mother felt this about her and this is my 50th b’day card she gave me a few days before she passed on to heaven. God gave my Mommy the wisdom to speak from her heart .. what better gift to leave a daughter?
I’m sure I will also be making a memorial in the stick home with many things I have from our precious memories together. I truly believe opening the card & letter has truly brought me peace and the love I’ve always desired from a mother. In time, God will take some of the pain away, I know it will not all leave and there will always be a special place in my heart for my Mommy but with time comes peace and healing
God say’s it best with his description of what Love is .. 1 Corinthians 13:13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is Love. I am blessed that I got share the greatest gift a mother/daughter could and that is that we both loved each other with all we had. Some may argue I was never her daughter but her heart and mine knew differently. God brought us together and no man can separate our love we had for each other.
